Here Are The Things
December 5, 2014 § Leave a comment
Here are the things to remember about myself. When I am unsure, when I am unsettled, when the struggle seems endless and my heart is sad. Here is what I am:
I am strong. I broke up with Danny. I did it, I brought it about, I made it happen after six years. I was the strong one.
I am healing. I am okay by myself. I like myself.
I have my family. I will always, always, always have my family. There will always be a place for me in the house. They will always be able to make me laugh.
I know how to offer it up. I know that suffering means something, that hurt and heartbreak are valuable.
I am Catholic. The indelible mark of Baptism is on my soul. The commission of Confirmation is within me. The rock of Peter is beneath me.
I can write. I wrote through heartbreak. I wrote through loneliness. I wrote through confusion.
I am strong. I know that true strength and true knowledge of self come from unselfishness, for it is far harder to put others first.
I have friends, good friends and true. The best kind of friendship has been gifted to me. Some people never experience a true, beautiful, unselfish friendship… but I have them, more than one, and that is a treasure.
I am kind.
I will never stop noticing the beauty of the world: a soft and dark green fir tree, the rolling mountains, a tangy scent of wild grapes in autumn air, the endless play of light on water.
I am strong.